Sleeping Arrangements

Huggins is 3 and 3 months. Until now, he has been sleeping at least part of every night in our bed. Now, I'm proud to say, we're on day 2 of him sleeping all night in his bed. This is something that Jim has been focused on for a LONG time- for about 3 years and 3 months. I have had many anxieties about Huggins' sleep, or more accurately, my sleep. I've been afraid that if I fall asleep something might happen to him (all of the scary things that mothers imagine might happen to their children). I remember our first nights with him being some of the most anxious of my life. We'd be in bed together, and if I'd drift off, I'd suddenly wake up, feeling guilty and check to see if he was still breathing, it was a rough couple of... years.

This thing of Huggins sleeping in his bed has been a big deal. I've had to "let go" a little. All these mommy feelings I thought were about personality, really aren't. They're about position- I'm a mom. This stuff comes with the territory. The other thing I learned is that teaching kids takes time. You have to try something for a month to see if it works. I've been looking, not for a quick fix, but for a quick answer. I've been expecting some big giant neon signs to point me in the right direction. I felt that my experience as a nanny, coach, teacher should all help me in parenting, and maybe it has, but it doesn't mean that it's not still hard. It is.

What's lovely is: My husband and I have a huge king bed, all to ourselves, and the boy has a cute little red cowboy bed.